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Rebellion
Each morning and each evening since they'd taken the radio station
in the capital the week before, the rebels had proclaimed the
capture of the airport too, but she knew that wasn't true because
she lived in that quarter of the city and could hear the planes
still landing and leaving and as she walked there in the cool of
this morning she could see the white belly of one plane nestle into
the green pillow of the trees and then disappear behind them.
Shifting her weight from one foot to the other and her baby from hip
to hip, she waited at the back of the crowd outside the silver fence
around the airport until others gathered behind her and pressed her
into the decision she'd already made. She ducked elbows and armpits,
threaded sweating bellies and breasts and the wet heads of other
crying babies until she managed to stand before the silver gate. Her
baby had stopped crying when the porridge from the outside world had
stopped, because this place was too dangerous. On the other side of
the gate three soldiers made a broken triangle standing in the dust,
looking up every now and then at the crowd or behind them where the
thrum of propellers rounded the curving roofs of hangers. With her
eyes she caught the eyes of one of the three, a black gun across his
chest blacker even than his eyes, stains under the sleeves of his
green shirt nearly as dark.
The good fortune and her surprise was that the price from the
soldier's mouth was less than she'd been told yesterday. In fact,
the price of the bribe had declined everyday for the week she'd been
coming to this gate. Who knows where they'd spend it, but the
soldiers seemed eager today to accept anything and so the bribe in
the end amounted to even less than she had hidden under the waist of
her skirt. One soldier slung his gun and reached for the baby, who
still did not cry, and she wrapped and tucked the white blanket
firmly before following the first soldier behind a hanger where she
lay down in the dust under the shade of a spindly locust. The crowd
had grown from the gate along the fence so that now eyes beyond the
fence could glance or stare at her lying there, gaze at the soldier
kneeling to lie with her; then she turned her head away. She would
not kiss though his lips groaned over hers and she would not close
her eyes that did not focus on the clouds in the high pale sky or,
nearer, on the thin branches waving in the breeze. She followed the
soldier back to her baby, tucked in the dirtied blanket again and
shooed a fly bigger than her baby's eyelid, blacker than her baby's
eye, returned to the bare shade of the tree with the second, then
the third, kept her mouth closed against the three of them. For a
few moments after the third soldier stood and began to rebuckle his
belt, she didn't bother to rise further than to prop on her elbows
and breathe in the heat again. He had a wiry black beard that had
not roughed her jaws like the stubble of the other two. You'll never
get on board, he said, bending for his gun against the tree. She
almost nodded because she'd never intended to, then stood herself
and fetched her baby close and pulled at the hem of her skirt again
with her free arm.
Away from the hanger began the long road toward the plane, and at
the end stood another crowd dazzled to a shimmer under the sun. Her
feet burned flat but that only made her step quicker, and this crowd
was smaller, trying to reach into the door opening darkly in the
side of the white plane and there was a breeze here over them all, a
relief, and each one in the crowd was talking but no one heard
another. She parted her lips and took from under her tongue the wet
and folded money to squeeze in the fist that was not around her
baby. Then well before them came a scream over the trees and made
the crowd all dodge down and then a second scream louder, with gray
smoke bellowing at the edge of the lake that lay beyond the fence.
The propellers blurred further and the plane began to roll and some
in the crowd fell in the stiffened wind but she had never crouched
even in the explosions and used the time to overtake the door and
begin to jog holding up her baby at the closest face. There's no
room, the face said. No more room. She said, Just the baby. Just
take my baby boy, but the face closed and said nothing more and
there was another scream, which she didn't hear running now, holding
up the fist partly opening and fingers that had been holding the
face closed came toward the money and she yelled running as fast as
she could now, The baby first, and one hand wrenched the baby from
her under the arm so that his head rolled out from the blanket and
another hand plucked the money and she reached to set the blanket
right again and touched only wind, falling now to knees and hands
hard on the grit of the runway but her face lifted to see the plane
lifting from its perfect shadow on the ground, the plane against the
trees and then the blue of the sky and its shadow passing over the
fence and over the lake and now over the trees and farther out the
white belly turning so slowly in circling back that she wondered for
a smiling moment how it could float there, the door beginning to
close and she on the point of touching her forehead to the runway in
prayer when from that hole in its side came something white that
fluttered briefly before flying open like a tiny parachute from a
darker object and while the parachute jerked free from the plane
suddenly and settled more slowly down to the work of reaching earth
the darker object dropping loose from it arched and flailed four
small limbs into the blue air that appeared to pale behind this new
and darkening creature that plummeted faster and unbelievably faster
to splash a sudden white flower in the lake and as suddenly wither
back into the water again.
For No Apparent Reason...
. . . bright and early Monday, well, early anyway, God, being a
polyglot, said Fiat lux. Then, blinking, said, Where the hell is
that coming from? But when the divine eyes had adjusted, God said,
Not half bad. Course it won't burn forever.
(Only three days later, his light being until then strangely under a
bushel, did he see the need for a sun. Meanwhile, the first flora
had been germinating forth and increasing a whole day before the eye
of heaven peeped, and evening and morning had been naturally
bestowed from the very beginning. Hm, God said, maybe I really
should have thought this through a little more deeply.)
Days two and three, each also had its labor. And day four
preternaturally saw the spangling of sun and stars. And God said,
Let there be lights in the firmament of the heaven to divide the day
from the night; and let them be for signs, and for seasons. . . .
That made God scratch in his beard a bit. Something about those
signs. . . . Oh well, it would sort itself out. What was an
anachronism to a deity?
Thus the week progressed.
Day five was all taken up with fowl and fishes, so that by the sixth
day God said, I better get on the stick or I'm not going to have any
weekend at all. Cattle, reptiles, and wild animals, each according
to their kind, every creeping thing, were quickened as quickly as
possible. So that, at the eleventh hour, huffing and puffing to his
deadline, God said, Let us make man in our image to rule the fish in
the sea, etc. Be fruitful, etc. And so he panted upon the dust and,
voila, humus became human.
On the seventh day, as all know, he ceased from the work he had set
himself to do. Jesus, God said, watching the youngsters frolic and
gambol, I'm tired as hell. They can wait, and settled in for a nice
kip without further instructions. But then Eve and Adam started
right in chomping at the bit and made so much racket going about it
that God's eyes flashed open and he thundered, What the devil hast
thou done now?
Ribbones atremble, Adam and Eve, wagging their fingers, said, Don't
blame us. We're here in your own ineffable image to rule over this
muckheap, to have dominion over every creeping thing that creepeth,
except serpents, etc.
Eff off, said God, rubbing the sleep from his eyes. Now get to hell
out, and he gave them the digitus infamis. Thus they departed.
God, said God, damn me. If I had known I was going to make such a
figgin hash of it, I'd have taken the whole bloody week off.
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